For some reason my desire for writing has been for self expression and not for fulfillment of the reader. The last class I took before I graduated was ‘Creative Writing 2′ at OCAD, in which everyone excelled in writing descriptive fictional stories. I couldn’t relate with their writing and I wasn’t even interested in reading most of it because my brain couldn’t focus or didn’t find it interesting enough to focus. Maybe it was the lack of depth and dull performance that kept my selfish writing continue in first-person.

I always found that people respect honesty and vulnerability and translate it to strength and confidence. Don’t you just love it when you hear someone express themselves, with rage, tears or laughter? There is an intuitive admiration for vocalness of a person who finds their personal observations interesting enough to be heard by others. It’s like watching a good new movie, or eating a zesty meal or watching the season finale of your favourite show. The real deal is what we want…right?

So why is it that in this ego-centric, narcissistic world we have today we find less fiction and even lesser facts. It’s rare to find insightful and imaginative story-tellers and complete self-expressionists. It’s like an art is missing. It’s like all that we can express is a waste of breath because we are too busy trying to decide whether we love or hate our modernized culture, meaning our nice condos, cars and 9-5 jobs. Our egos are going over the roof, and we don’t even want to work for it. We’re spoiled because we think our efforts are worthless and our failure is the greatest excuse to never leap for the unknown.

Guess what?

I got a wake-up call when I decided to volunteer my skills to a place and people I liked and found inspiring. That’s how I discovered my courage. It wasn’t through school, it was by letting go of my ego and throwing myself at the world with an open heart, willing to fight for every bit of fame I got on the way.

I want to start writing stories about my experiences, without me in them. I want to see how creating a scenario with characters and expressing those characters might change the impact of what I write for the observer. It’s time for me to start telling stories to stimulate your imagination.

Coming soon.